Leala Desmarais

Agar cinta kan abadi

2010-10-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

I never ever literally drip a tear and collect a pool just because I am happy being in love with someone. Today, when I listen back to Padi - Kasih Tak Sampai, everything from our yesterdays came rushing back into my mind. These are the happiest moments of my life. And that I finally say it, I've gone speechless. Thank you :)

Sweet Gone Bitter

2010-09-11T19:46:00.003+08:00

I begin to believe in karma. There is some things that you did in the past that will come and hit you back. It hit on me. I don't know how long I can handle this but as long as I could, I'll keep hanging.

Where is my pay?

2010-08-23T21:30:00.008+08:00

Truth

2010-08-17T21:57:00.003+08:00

I have never cried even a bit when I was with you, Afif. Until today when you just had to turn haywire and all the relationship status changes, I wasn't strong enough to hold my tears. It's little things like this that got me so caught up. These little things about you that I don't know what Im so worried about. I have never been so frank in my blog post but Afif, I care so much for you. Up till now, you're really someone I thought I should be with and someone who could take care of each other like a family. In my life, I have never been so rebellious towards my parents. I am not blaming you for anything but look, just look at how much I want to be with you rather than anyone else. Even so, you still don't see it. You'll never see it. I love you. I know you or none of my friends would ever read this blog ever again because of it's too boring appearance but really I wish you'd figure it out somehow. Figure how much I don't want to lose you. People would think, ah Amanda's strong enough if she'd go through the same old thing all over again, the "guys leaving Amanda". I am not strong like how I would appear to be but if it really happens, I can accept the fact that I am not any girlfriend material. I suck. I've been through that. If Afif, is just going to be another person leaving my life because of my "annoying attitude" then I have nothing to say. All I could think of is, Im jinx and I don't deserve all the good guys in the world. I don't know how long I would get over this but... I love you, Afif. Not Afifer, not Abeet no no not even Apip but Afif and only Afif. There is no way though to force or fake someone's feelings. I'd just hope he'd still feel the same way Im feeling. Whatever happens, happens. Im still going to die alone anyway. Life - face it.

Inception!

2010-08-10T01:47:00.002+08:00

I still have no idea where to begin. Everything was as complicated but as joyful as you can never imagine. It's amazing how we got this far. He was just another somebody I thought I couldn't communicate with. Surprisingly, the things you could never think of just brought us together like gravity. Yet, I still had mind that I was just another brother.

We met each other everyday. We help if ones in need, accompanied if ones to company. We joke, fight, laugh like typical siblings and we talk like typical bestfriends. They, the ones around us have watch us grow "in our own world". We were confused, we kept figuring out. Little did I know, we became lovers ♥ Or was it just another inception?

Goodnight world.

Different

2010-08-06T20:31:00.002+08:00

It has been so long and I am here again figuring out how to express myself in words. Keep typing, keep backspacing. I am idealess but I have a lot to tell. To start with, I have came to wonder why that I cared so much for a someone to such a big extent that I'd help him anything I could do to get him up back on his feet.

I can't really describe it how because there is just tons of things I'd do for him. It's not that I'd be his slave or just a spare tyre but ah, I bet you get what I mean. I never want to see him in other emotions. I only love to see him happy. We are a thing we called partners in crime and we do stupid things happily together :)

Suddenly all I want to say is, I ♥ him.

It's taking over

2010-05-13T11:45:00.002+08:00

I like that look on your face when you are high on the moon.

I like that smirk when you didn't want to smile or laugh.

I like that ignorant attitude when you were with anyone.

I like that influence you bring me into when I give myself to.

I like you very much.

But now,

Who?

2010-04-26T20:23:00.001+08:00

Im stuck in a playboy's world.
I want to get out of here.
It's suffocating me.

Somebody?

2010-04-08T13:25:00.002+08:00

You made me feel something that not even simple words can describe.

I want to tell them, tell the whole world what it is about.

But I guess it's quite..............

Extraordinary

bodo

je t'aime

2010-03-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

Do you still remember?

When you first get mad me the moment we first met?
When you get irritated because you thought I was quiet?
When you asked me out to the zoo and I said I wanted too?
When you had the first longest call you had with me?
When you kept going online because you knew I was online?
When you stare at me for long and I got irritated cause I was shy?
When you webcamed and I watch you sleep?
When you asked me to sleep because you wanted to sleep?
When you called me mandy instead of manda?
When you never fail to text me a goodnight message?
When you keep insisting our height isn't so much of a difference?
When you would reply me with a heart shape fingers through the web?
When you said you like me and I was speechless?
When you said I love you but I said I like you because I was scared?
When you got angry when I told you Im afraid that one day you'll leave me?
When you wouldn't promise because you believe so much in fate?

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight to help me get over you.
Im sorry.
I miss you.

Just go on

2010-02-15T12:34:00.002+08:00

You have been deceiving me in many ways.

I have learnt that you are not the best person I ever met.

There are just things that I should learn from mistakes.

I couldn't forget but I shouldn't regret.

There are others who cares.

He said "A smile is a curve that set everything else straight"

It is not the end because life is great when you seek them.

Waves

2010-02-02T10:16:00.002+08:00

Everything have change.

Things have always been changing.

You shout me a different name.

I laugh it out.

But they thought it was a shame.

Avatar Made My Day

2009-12-29T23:00:00.003+08:00

It's Tuesday, and tuesday is a no school day.

My boyfriend and I went to watch Avatar in the cinema..

It was 2 thumbs up!

Honestly, the best ever movie I've ever watch with him.

The best ever movie I've seen this year.

What could you ask more from the director of Titanic and Terminator?

Excellent job!

I love it!

I love you

♥♥♥

2009-12-25T15:15:00.002+08:00

You are be too shallow in your thinking.

I don't want to look or even listen to you now.

Though, it's only like a scratch on my heart.

You heartless inhuman species.

Idiot.

Get a clearer view

2009-12-16T18:38:00.004+08:00

Facts.

Have you ever wondered why you were treated differently? Did you even notice? The smallest things like you and me can't hang out till late but it's okay if I didn't even get back home at all when I'm with them. She doesn't mind me being friends with them but minds when it comes to you. Have you seen the difference? A wide huge different between you and them. Now, I believe her when she said that, you are not worth my time but they are the ones I should spend time with.

We shall scrap that off. The year 2009 has been wonderful. You are just a very tiny winy bit of dot that doesn't matter. At all. The pre-end of 2009 was awesome! Zoukout '09 is the shit! The atmosphere was remarkable, the company was 2 thumbs up! Armin was heaven!!!!!!!! With people and events like these how could I not get any happier :) Soon I'm going to close the chapter of life for this year with a great wide smile. Sure gonna be wider next year, cause' zo '10 here I come! Heh.

Alright off for a mini night picnic now! Heeeeeeeeeee ♥♥♥

Choices

2009-11-04T23:16:00.002+08:00

Things dont always go the way you wanted it to be. It changes according to time. Just like human beings, they don't always stay the same. They grow old, they learn to love and they learn to hate. People make choices. Good and bad. People make friendship. Strong and weak. Sometimes you don't see what you see, and you don't get what you're suppose to get. Seeing is not perceiving. I don't regret in life but I learn from my mistakes. Thanks for making me realised and open my eyes, youre not what I see and I see what youre not.

People come and go.

Who doesn't know?

Right?

Anyway,

I ♥ you taek!

Ich Liebe Dich

2009-10-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

There are some things you can't force to happen. Some things that won't go the way you wanted it to be. Some things we don't talk about. Some things that will come naturally. Some things you don't know where they will bring you to another exit. Some things like affection. Yes it happens.

It makes you smile, it makes you sad, it makes you mad, it makes you go all around the world, makes you go insane. It makes you not understand the feeling, not understand the situation, not understand why are you with that person, not understand what happened. Yes it does.

Awesome huh? It can do so much things to you, me, us. But, I love it like that :)

Sneak Peak of Her Come Back

2009-09-15T03:10:00.003+08:00

Absence makes the heart grow fonder? Yeah sure. Now that I believe, let's reminisce a bit. Without knowing much, time passes by real fast! It's like we grew from small cute littles babies and suddenly we're old enough to die now. Haha. Ok maybe that isn't funny huh.

Basically, I just still couldn't believe that... We've been through quite long, say almost 2 years? We started as small crush, hang out hi bye friends and then we started dating and I guess, you're someone special. Haha much right?! I know.. It feels kind of weird now, not really.

Well, it's been really great. So two thumbs up for myself. I'd say, life is wonderful like having fun on the rainbow. Haha enough of fantasizing. But Im just glad for myself that Im no longer that girl you used to know, the girl who's so dependant on someone's else happiness. Cause I've got my own.

Sum it all up and also a part of lesson learnt from the incident 3 years back... Do not let others ever bring you down! Cause you are special in every other way, cause you are the best, cause you are damn extra ordinary. Want simpler explanation? Well, that's me! Haha!

This post kinda make me feel like I'm gonna post more soon. I don't know but see ya! ♥♥♥♥♥

Yes.

2009-09-03T21:33:00.000+08:00

Face the truth (Y)

Don't deny don't interrupt don't comment

You are a whore (N)

What is it?

2009-08-27T02:26:00.002+08:00

Why did these feelings fall so deep for you

I know it's wrong and yes it's wrong

That's because I should be standing strong

Alone

I couldn't help it and it couldn't be help

Is this love or just in love with you loving me

♥

Seashells them

2009-07-19T04:28:00.000+08:00

Why the sudden ups & downs

Why does it have to come

Why is life so unfair

Why is life fair sometimes

Why these feelings

Why the guilty

Why the loved

Why the jealousy

Why came the unimportant

But never question the happiness

Cause I know, because of you

♥

Our hearts

2009-07-07T23:03:00.003+08:00

How do I put it in words? Joy, happiness, nervous, excited, shy, delirious. Much like affection? Well, it's pretty hard to describe but pretty easy to feel. It's like having colourful walls, colourful floors, colourful dreams, colourful.. everything. It's like taking in the rainbow pills. But words still can't explain...

♥♥♥

High Cycle

2009-06-28T15:57:00.005+08:00

It's about the first time you & I met.

What happen after that?

Give me a call before I fall

Don't leave me sad, come here & catch

♥

It's the old story, remember?

Cause even if you're far away, I am here to stay

Mouthwash

2009-06-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

Papers over! Hahaha it already felt that way since it started. I think Im going to be so prepared to see my screwed results. Im suppose to be revising for tomorrow's paper (Yes there is still one more) but like yesterday,the day before and before before, I just can't start. It's so mundane to be stuck onto this chair, not wanting to get away so I won't feel guilty. Still, Im not studying O_O

No emotions no feelings. But feel that my pair of ears needs to listen to Kate Nash little adorable voice (just like mine) at this very boring situation. Im so lucky I didn't have a tagboard since pretty much some time ago else they'll hate tag about my Kate Nash's voice. Haha! So lame, seriously. Been sticking to fb and I really wanna get out of here. I just cant wait for term break!

Guess what's the first thing I'll do when tests over? I'll rushed to meet Hakim and let him install l4d into my damn laptop! Hahaha! Then we'll go and have a mass gaming. Lol!! Okay ^_^ I've a few things in mind for my break. I wanna get my dr. martens boots, dp summer dress.... I swear Ive got a lot a minute ago. Gosh! I just remember this one.. lan gaming with zul/friends! Hahaha!

It's always when Im bored, Ive got a lot to say. Anyway, we'll be making a surprise advance birthday party for Fatin tomorrow (I doubt so she reads my blog, so don't worry). Hahaha!! Hmm we'll be having chicken feast! Ergh chicken! Oh oh talking about birthdays, mine is going to be a really cool date 09/09/09. Ahhh!!! Hekhek. My 18th somemore! I wanna get a bike. Bye!

2009-06-01T17:00:00.000+08:00

In your faces

Perhaps

2009-05-21T18:28:00.012+08:00

'Cause having girl friends isn't that bad. When once I thought they'd be some kind of disaster, I choked on my words. They'd never fail to bring the existence of joy and laugthers. Each and everyday. There's always a reason why I don't skip school.

I'm angry but pretty happy :)

Kill me!

2009-05-17T15:11:00.005+08:00

Three in the afternoon, my is bed calling me for a nap again!! If I know I have this much work to do, I wouldn't left home yesterday's night. I don't know what's analogous, complimentary, triad, split, double colours and I can't find them on the net.

Lots on colour and composition . Dammit. I don't fucking like this, 'cause nothing is helping me. Fuck sial, seriously. Ergh! I heard something's telling me, I talked too much. Hahaha what? I heard something's asking me for photos. Ergh!? Kill me! =_=

I am going to get a mini cornetto blueberry and I don't care! Ergh.. O_o

Petty Whines

2009-05-14T22:42:00.003+08:00

Im not pissed off. I just want to feel pissed. I don't like thursdays like I don't like you. 'Cause you made my day so blue. The notes I scribbled through and the thoughts of hatred just for you. Eew, Im whinning just because of Y-O-U?!?

When my paintings of rainbow turned grey. 'Cause the red, blue and yellow fades away. What happened? I am going less sane, but you're getting me more pain. If you are going to tell me this is my fate, you're the first person I'll hate!

FUCK YOURAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Im not pissed and I promise. Hahahaha! It's just a little drama in me. It felt like a knock in my head. Your talks and your way is waking me out of bed. I don't like you. I don't and I don't! You're typically the same and I'm not a fucking game.

Idiotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

Guess what. I don't want to care. What I know, what you know, what we don't know. Who wants to find out? Anyway, it has been a pretty hectic week. Though we pretty have much fun. Heheh!Ergh. Just wait when I'm 18 and kick in your face!

I don't need to wait. Badnight beings, 8am tomorrow!

Xyle Indistinct

2009-05-11T20:17:00.000+08:00

Hello. I've got a pretty good day. Eventhough I know something is not right. If the world is going to blame me, be it. I was wrong. The mind just couldn't get rid of you. In the bus, in class and everywhere I go.

'Cause I have one wish, not to lose you. Maybe, I shouldn't be the cat who disturbs the hamster. Hahaha. I don't think it's funny. When will the silent cold war be over?

On a lighter note, I was forced to do something. It didn't sound like a lighter note, didn't it? Lol. I'm going to do it once Sham. Only once!(!!) Sigh. Okay here it is.. Sham is handsome but his malay sucks like shit!

Hahaha that's the end of my post. Kau owe aku birthday cake Shammm! HAHAHA ^_^

I thought.

2009-05-08T22:22:00.004+08:00

Maybe I was overreacting.

Maybe I was wrong.

But, why this feeling?

Why is it so strong?

Tell me.

So long I was.

Arising mental exortion.

Maybe, you are the cause.

I need your attention.

Show me.

Damn, I forgot to buy my white poster colour today :(

Paint Estelle

2009-04-30T22:00:00.007+08:00

I thought life was going to be harder. It was then when I face the future with such a narrow mind. Today, I feel so grateful that I managed to get through those very hard times I used to had in school. Well, maybe just a little drama about flipping through the pages of thick booklets. Haha I think I was a little too exaggerating or maybe I was just a bit lazy and off the track.

Eventhough, it was only the end of the first week of school, it was REALLY chill compared to the previous year. They told me year 2 is going to be a lot of work but Im still doing fine. I love how the subjects are in place right now. I don't have to deal with the wires anymore! They really tangled up in my head! It felt like more things are what I finally know what I want to do.

Modani could be a lot of hands on and time. Co & co for CDS are expensive and a lot of work anddd time. Hahaha but I can't deny they're interesting. They're how I want it to be. NetFund, TelPrin. . . Oh great Im stucked with MCT! Hahaha totally have no idea but Im still going to get myself going. This time, there shouldn't be any more "gives up(s)" or "to hell with it(s)". Well. . .

Anyway, since I got home earlier, I have been clicking on the cyrstal eye webcam camera and the result was the pictures above! Hahaha! It's already 10:53pm. I think I better get a bath now. Dream tonight and start doing my art tomorrow! I need to finish up modani and fill up the storyboard with animations. Party with the paints and brushes! Haha. Goodnight, sweet dreams.

Reinventing The Past

2009-04-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

Wow. I've grown up into an adult. Hahaha! I used to speak my mind on this bloody thing called blog. A little bit like now. I didn't care how I expressed myself and show the world how I feel. Where's that little Amanda? Hahaha okay maybe not so little. Seriously, don't give me that face. Well, it's a different time, a different person now. When I used to tell you who I have a crush with, now it's time for you to find out! Heheh

Oh God, I really miss typing out these letters. I'm making the sounds of it. Hmm, what should I try to story right now.. Holidays? It's never been better!!(!!!!) I don't quite usually opt for more holidays then I'm doing right now. I'm really lazy to step into the name of school again. It sucks more than trying to love your enemy. Stupid Akid, he tries to tell me I'm hot but I'm not. Well, that is how ironic it could be.

Why am I saying all this? Hahaha. It seems like I've turn back into that little Amanda who doesn't really care what people say. The truth is, I always did care about it. HAH! The same time, I tried to cover this earholes with less compliments less criticism, that's about average. What the hell, really, am I doing. Sigh. Kind of a boring night, tonight. Hmm, let me see. Singapore is kindly goddamn boring. The places I went everyday is the places I went everyday. Wow, my english is not bad.

Anyway, Im running out of words. There's just too many to say like how I always said in bloodgushing. It's suppose to end with a g =_= Damnit, I'm pretty random tonight. This is going to be the last paragraph for me to stop making nonsense. The fourth paragraph I'm going to end with. I need another 2 more lines to deal with it. Haha! Should I laugh it all off? Just another one. Okay, I'm going to end it with a "Stop watching your book, Stop reading your tv". Goodnight earthlings. What's that? I don't know.

Rain and Rainbows

2009-03-05T14:30:00.006+08:00

I'd tear the photos into pieces

What are you people made of?

Inhumans destroying the world

I place myself low but you are not higher

Two, no three, no four of you, nothing is true

You made your choice to lie

I see it in your face, don't try too hard to cry

'Cause they've got better taste than you

If this bitting words are enough to send chills up your spine

When the sun decided not to shine

Humiliating you infront of a large spectator

'Cause you know,

Im not saint but Im not a sinner

Today, tomorrow and so

Ive woke up to see the rain on my window pane

Skip through the squares before it ends

Feel the warmth of holiday cheer

Where the stars starts to twinkle

'Cause young hearts like me begin to tingle

Fly overseas, meet someone I wish

And a lomo to play with

Enjoy! Enjoy! Enjoy!

I'd better get going..

Happy holidays! ^_^

Hahaha

2009-02-14T22:06:00.002+08:00

What do you know about Valentine's Day?

I don't care and I don't want to know.

My thoughts went rushing through the days I spent with you.

We used to share the same song.

You'll sing to me and your voice lingers on my mind, endlessly.

When I had my mind on you all the time.

It was short but I still had them in my mind like rewinding an old classic tape.

Something like you, someone like you, but not you for the days ahead.

I don't have a perfect vocabulary.

But, I consider myself lucky.

Spread the love, joy and happiness.

Make Your Groove

2009-02-13T23:10:00.004+08:00

A place

Where we can dance and drink

Where we can share some weed

Where there is no bullshit

And everybody can come

Cause ants like you don't matter to me

Then, 2008

2009-01-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

I'd laugh. I'd smile knowing how different I could be. My old blog proves it all. How I had all the time in the world. My own good time. I don't even have time to look into the mirror now. I used to spend hours doing my thick eyeliner, trying to spread compact on my face. Today, Im just natural.

I've built little friendships that grew bigger. Though, some got lost. Even worst, it's just a come and go now. How things change. Then, I'd be childish to all surround me. Im thankful for 410 who made me who I am now. Not exactly but almost. People often said, "first love is hard to forget". To 410.

I used to have so much to whine. Now, only things to myself. They asked if I could, but I couldn't. They felt neglected, I insist I attended. Time. Where can I find. Today, marks the second day of 2009, surprisingly Im still all free from bgr since 2 years back. I wonder what's in store.

Well, it's time to please myself now :)

Vampires

2008-12-24T21:12:00.004+08:00

Im so bored. Im so bored. Im so bored. Hahaha
I almost forgotten how I used to update my blog. Almost regularly.
How I used to choose not to care how my english sounds.
Now that it matter so much about my vocabulary, even my grammar.
Though it's still as bad. Fine. Hahaha

And then I'd upload a lot of pictures. Not necessary at all.
Sometimes I thought, why would you want to show the whole world about your life.
But then again, at times, rainbow pills really is another friend in the cyber world.
Maybe. Hahahaa

I don't like assignments. Especially, the ones with codes and requires research..
I just thought maybe God could've keep Edward Cullen in the near future for me. How I love the movie! Hahahaha I don't like how I jump into different topics like this. =_=
*Breathes out so loudly* When is my Cinta Fitri 3 going to start..

I havent been watching since I was overseas. Very busy holiday-ing. Hahaha
Since then, Ive come up with a plenty of plans for my upcoming breaks..
I really want to have travel mates and travel all around the world starting from this age.
Two countries per year at least. It really sounds fun!

First, I'd start with a cheaper air ticket. Then gradually improving..
Hahaha! And... By the way, I got my nails polished in black! Hehehe

Ok o_O

Sinks in My Skin

2008-11-24T20:31:00.005+08:00

To a certain extent, I could not bear the hidden feelings.

It finally popped out.

To feel frustrated over myself, with a strong feeling of displeasure.

I cannot lie, there is melancholy in me.

The world filled with insensitivity.

The problem has always been ;

Why can't I fit a UK 6/8?

I hate how my photographs fakes.

Why don't I have any confidence?

Why must there always be procastination?

Why can't I be like them?

Those artificial and insincerity.

Fuck, why?

I don't need fame.

I don't need them to love me.

All I need is to learn and like myself.

At least.

To worsen it all off,

Thanks to the labtests.

And all the upcoming theory papers.

I almost quit, almost did.

It's time to battle, Amanda.

Goodnight Insanity, I guess I'll meet you again tomorrow?

Picturious

2008-11-08T11:15:00.001+08:00

HELLO THERE AND WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE..

HAHAHA! I HAVE BEEN REALLY SICK AND WHAT NOT VERY BUSY!

SO, JUST A MINI UPDATE ^_^

AND BIG THANKS TO QAMMY :)

Mist

2008-10-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

Tired and horrified.

Not the long hours in school that drains all my energy

But the look on your face at the corridor of the hospital

Waiting in silence with your blank stary eyes

I wonder why

And I don't know what you were thinking

Honestly, Im frightened

I don't know how to escape

But life's been good to me :)

It turned me into a brat

Haha

Sleepless Night

2008-09-29T04:30:00.000+08:00

Oh my God. I really don't know if I should go and sleep now?!? Hahaha. You know something like.. "too lazy to go to bed" though Im already on it. Haha! Im so random. Tell me in the face. Hahaha. I think Im in love.. with these cute little emoticons!! Gemez banget! Don't you think so? Oh well, my Sunday has been Ice cream Sunday, yeah I think I want that now before I sleep. Yumm *Imagining* Ya =_= Makakaka. I watched Fun with Dick and Jane earlier and it was hilarious la. I don't know why Im telling unnecessary stuff. Hahaha! K my problem k.

Yeah it's bloody Sue and me! Hahaha! You got that right people, we were bored at 2am! My post is very exciting because there's a lot of exclamation mark. I was about to type it as explanation btw. Hahaha! Ergh as a girl, I cannot get enough of clothes, bags, shoes and accessories and many more things in life!! Hahaha. Guess what am I doing? I don't know what is my motive. In case you do, buy me these things then! Hmm o_O

Fine you want me to stop talking so much right? I will give you pictures! Hmpf! Bye!

*IMPORTANT* LOOK AT THEIR EYES! THEYRE AIMING MY GELARE SANDWICH! HAHAHAHA!

September says

2008-09-28T00:50:00.008+08:00

Hello! I better get going before Im too lazy to get my brains working on this blog! September's been pretty occupied, couldn't ask for more. Ily holidays. Hahaha. A few minutes ago, I was at the Ikea browsing through the things I need for my bedroom! Im grooming my room! Ergh Yeayy!! I have a theme. It's a surprise! Hahaha. I hope it'll work out. Every room in the house are beautifully arranged but mine?! Mine?! I give you permission to sleep. HAHAHA! So yes, I can't wait!

Hari Raya is just in a few days time. Im so happy that my dad is here in Singapore! Yeay! My parents are planning to get out of Singapore for Raya. Yes wherever it is, I feel like it too even only a few inches out of Singapore. Even out swimming at the sea.. K Manda ok. Hahaha.

Anyway, earlier today in class, my teacher asked whether I had a new keyboard tutor at home and I went like ..
I feel God damn guilty, I was making faces. Haha! He's so nice to me, Im the only student he wrote notes for (others was asked to do themselves) and says "bye take care" me! Only me! It's so hard to leave. HAHAHA.

See this, once I start story-telling it'll never stop. I feel like a grandma now *holds a walking stick and giving my shit face* . Khekhekeh. Im going to upload kind of belated pictures to give more colour to this post right after. Yes Manda ok. Hahaha! Well, I hope I'll be meeting Dan tomorrow, he says he miss me HAHAHA ok Imy too. Really, Im giving this sincere face you gundu. Heheh. Sleep tight world!

Undescribed

2008-09-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

I hate how I update my previous post. But, if I were to delete it no one will ever know what I am hating about. Did I mention too many that Im broke? Well.. yeah I am again? Haha. It goes something like, everytime I am broke I get money and when Ive got money I go broke. Good? Yes No? * Turns away* If you know how I jeling.. *Jelings away* Hahaha!

So much for the "I want to save alot of money then buy this buy that". I just bought more clothes AGAIN today! Yes =_= Hehehe. Well, apart from all of that the special thing that made my day was... Hehehe.. Sue falling into the longkang AGAIN! Drain! You know drain?! Longkang?! Nevermind. Turn on bitchy mode.

Im still bursting into laugthers everytime I flashed back how she fell with her "day dreaming with my otah-otah" Hehehe! BOOM! Now you see me now you don't. Hahaha if I knew that was gonna happen I would've captured it in a video and post it in youtube 2 hours later. Hahaha! Just kidding

Hmm. Im waiting for photos photos photos! Yes I need them when Im blogging. But not much today, because theyre not send to me YET. Yes you! You better send me soon O_o I like that face. Hehe. If you don't mind wasting your time reading this.. then Im about to tell a little of what've been going on..

Well, I sure had great weekends. My friends and I went break-fasting together at Geylang. Yeah.. (Pictures! You! Now!) Haha. (Obviously, Geylang is same damn old thing, boring) So.. we chilled and then head of to Ehub. Ya Haha! But the Ice Skating Park was close by 11pm =_= Yes give me that face. So we had supper at Gelare!

I can't forget the laughters we had on a piece of cookie! Hahaha shouldve cameras everywhere we go. *Shakes head*. You shouldve seen how they place their orders! Giggles, I wish there's a machine to rewind and save it in a memory thumb drive. Awww. Sometimes it's nice to have reminisce things like this.

Well, that should be about it. I can't wait to meet my friends tomorrow! Then we'll go break-fasting at Bugis's Seoul Garden! Yeah! Wooo Im going broke again. Hahaha. I'll see you soon.

PS : SO MUCH FOR THE FUCKING FRIENDSHIP! I TRIED BUT YOU DON'T ASS IN THE HOLE. ERGH! GTH TO YOU!!

It's Mandargh Bitch

2008-09-19T22:19:00.003+08:00

Hahaha! Title's so cute because Im listening to Britney Spiyaaarrrrrsssss. Haha. Hi!!! Im so so.. hehehe tired and ehe broke! Tdy tmr ystrdy nyehnyehnyeh.

Hahaha. Im so restless! Ya. *looks up down left right front* I bought all the things I wanted today with Sue and Zarifah then Im surprisingly broke but quite happy lah.. Ergh??!!

I feel like blogging tdy 'cause I feel like blogging lar. 'Cause it's like so funn.. =_= I really dont know what to do.. BTW! HAPPY BDAY MUII MUII, HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT DAY YSTRDY!

Hahaha ya Azaayy planned to surprise her so we set it up like a picnic. Haha maii was so cute larr because Aziee go drag her like mouse. Heheh k sorry happy birthday!

What ar.. my plans all clashed one.. 'Cause I said to all OK. Then first thing is Im broke lar then second is clashed. I talk like noob one right? Like people playing maple.

Haha! =_= Can die. I'll tell you, I can speak and write way better than this. Don't believe me? K fine ar. You know how I sound or not ar with all this larr?!

SOMEONE BUY ME A NEW CAMERA MY CAMERA LIKE SUCK AT NIGHT ONE WALAO

Ticking On

2008-09-17T23:36:00.015+08:00

Rainbow pills! *jumps and hugs it like so happy to see it* Wee wee *and then dance around* Ooooook. I intend to update earlier this afternoon, but because I see my bedroom is such in a mess I got laze with the laptop on me. Nonono not on me but I played with it. NONO!

What the fish and some froggie! Do know what I mean? No? *Turns around* Heheh. Well, I got a phonecall, and finally did the cleaning while talking. So yeay! Not so clean though. HAHA!

I tried to get rid of the dusts covering rainbow pills as well but sadly I don't even have time cleaning my damn room lor. 'Cause the holiday's been good. Hmm good enough to kill my boredom and my money. Hahahaha Im so funny. *giving you the pokemon face*

Well, it's been about meeting up with friends, movie marathons, window shop (I hate it when Im cashless, well everybody does too) , iftar-ing (just got to know the meaning siaxx!)

Now I don't know where to start. But like most people did, they tell you only about the most recent thing. So here goes.. Im being so so lame and trying too hard to be cool now. Hmm HAHAHA ok err ya.

I finally met my poly-pockets yesterday by the way! I so so soooo miss them! Can never get crazier lorx! *trying so hard to be the girls in gossip girl but turns out to be an ahlian*

Xoxo mojojo! Muahahaha Okay ar excuse muaa

The Journey

2008-09-10T12:31:00.005+08:00

Im so excited! Hehe. Today, Im going to tell about the trip to Msia. Finally! Well, I just got back on the 6th and Im missing the fun and engine peeps already!

DAY 1

Our first day, was on the 3rd. During the time we had at Uniten, we had games, cheers, also performed skecthes! My group, The Puks and the Pins! Hahaha! It was funny! I even made more new friends! With the same month of birth date and favourite colour! Hahaha! Kira and Nabeel! Weee.

AND AND AND THE MOVIE OF THE DAY WAS 4BIA! HAHAHA ONCE IN A LIFETIME REACTIONS!

Break fast at Uniten's canteen, where I got to know even more engine people! Heee. So, we headed to Petalling street after that! Shop!! Hehe. Finally to the Grand Continential Hotel. We had our night with more games and laughter with everyone gathering in one room! I mean, everyone! Hahax.

DAY 2

Day 2 started with a wake up call at 4am!! Hahaha and yeah we had our sahur. We had to sleep, really tired and yes! We woke up really late! Lucky enough, I get ready really quick!! Haha! Then, we head off to Smart Tunnel! Go figure out, it's cool! Then to Time Square!! Yeayy!!

While others were shopping and pampering, me, Hafiz, Raddy, Saufi, Din and Hakim headed to the Theme Park and went crazy!! Rides were insane!! I almost vomitted but luckily I managed to continue to fast. Hahaha. I had great great time! Hahaha Weee..

We went back to Uniten again. This time we were introduced to Civil Engineering. Not so interested in this field though. Hahahah. I thought I'd just get involved playing with the gadgets, still felt a little bit sick though. Haha! At night, we went to Petalling Street again! Woo.. Haha.

DAY 3

Planned to go up Petronas! FA's went to buy tickets. After 3hrs, they told us the tix were sold! Geez mad lor! Fasting and asked to wait?! Hahaha! But when they asked us to wait outside the gallery, came the surprise! Got into the lift and up the brigde of Twin Tower! Awesome! Haha!

Spent a while at Masjid India.. like Geylang! Haha. Filedtrip to PutraJaya. Beautiful! Then, it's break fasting! Had seafood at Restaurant by the bay. Hahaha Yummy! Had the last chat with the Uniten people. Aww! So back to the hotel and we chit chatted till dawn till sahur! I really had a wonderful time with you guys!

THANK YOU FOR THE AWESOME TIME PEOPLE!!! WOOHOOO

MSIA TRIP PHOTOS

2008-09-10T12:11:00.002+08:00

DAY # 3 DAY # 2

DAY # 1

IT'S ONLY 1/10 OF IT.. YA REALLY! ^_^ HUHU

A Year Older

2008-09-09T01:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY GIOVANI AMANDA SARI

ALSO TO THE 9TH SEPTEMBER BABIES WHICH HAS THE SAME DATE AS ME!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! MAY ALL YOUR WISHES, DREAMS COME TRUE. GOD BLESS! AMIN!

HAHAHAHAHAHA

I NEVER THOUGHT THERE'LL BE SO MANY AS IN REALLY SOOOOOOOO MANYYYYYY PEOPLE WISHING ME ON ME 17TH BIRTHDAY!! A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO ALL WHO WISHED ME! IM SORRY I COULDNT LIST ALL DOWN. TOO MANY!

POLY-POCKETS

ENGINE PEEPS

BANDMATES

EX-SEC SCHOOL

EX-GIGS PEOPLE

HBTS

BASICALLY... EVERYONE!!!!!

ERGGGHH IVE GOT MANY MORE TO LIST!!!

HEHE.. REMEMBER I LOVEEEEEEEE YOU ALL! THANK YOU SO MUCH A GREAT BIG HUG FROM ME TO ALL OF YOU! THANK YOUUU. I WANT TO KISS KISS AND HUG HUG ALL OF YOU HAHAHAHA THANK YOUUUU! OOOOOKAY IM SO HYPER! HEHE

MAY I BE A BETTER PERSON IN FUTURE. AMIN! HEHEHEHE MUACKS!

BTW, I'LL UPDATE ABOUT THE MSIA TRIP AFTER I GET MOST OF THE PICTURES SO THAT I'LL BE CONFIDENT ENOUGH TO POST ABOUT IT. HEHEHE LOVE YOU ALL!!! GOODNIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! MMMMMMMMMWAAHHHHH!

XOXO

Feel Me?

2008-09-02T02:18:00.001+08:00

Hey people. It's me again, Amanda in 98.7fm and in a while we'll be playing Kerli with Walking on Air. Oooooooooooookay. Im bored people! Bored! Let me tell you that... Eh wait you guys wanna check out something? Have a peek of Hadi's blog! Hahaha cb sia Hadi but well thank you. Hees. Soo yeah.. I really don't know what to do.

I havent been sleeping early and I think I need some of that. Hmm k.. Tick tock tick tock. It's so boring! Hahahaha so funny! Hmm yeah got some pictures from Saturday to upload.. If only somebody brought along their camera! Hahaha but thanks a lot Qammy! Yeah so now.. I don't know what to do. Hehehehehehehek Bye!

COUNT DOWN.. 7 MORE DAYS BABEEEHHHH *makes water vapour in your face* hahahaha!!

Before Dawn

2008-08-31T03:20:00.000+08:00

It's 3 in the morning. I havent change, I havent bathe, I havent clear my things, I havent tidy my bed, I havent wash my face, I havent take off my bangles, I havent sleep since I got back from baybeats 2 hours ago. Im right here taking photos with my lappie like a crazy little girl. Hehehek. It's so fun, cause Im bored and Im trying to forget whatever shits. Hehex. It's so fun laughing with an extra x. Hehehx. Check it out.

I need wings.

Just not my, DAYS

2008-08-31T01:51:00.000+08:00

I feel like I really need to tell the world that Ive got so many things in mind but too little to say. But I guess, I really have so much to talk about. It's going to be fucking random but yeah. First of all, where the fuck my 60 bucks went today?! I fucking spent it all on food and because I just cabbed my way back home. Im like thinking what the fish and chips and spagetthi straps?! Im in a very serious shiznitz in need of many many many kachings. I mean money is just so important for me right now.

Where the fuck am I gonna dick some gold man. Some gold digger but smarter than a hooker. Fuck your own balls lah. I really think the holidays arent helping me at all! You mother fish. Sigh. If I have the time of the world, Im going to sigh until you die of boredom. Fuck mannn. What is it? What is wrong with me? Im like thinking but I couldnt get an answer. Exams are for chicken sake over! But.. I still feel like my head is so heavy and I couldnt get some fresh air to breathe. Im like a fish that jumps out of the water.

Damn the shit man. This is so stupid! There's always someone who's got even worser problems than me and yet Im tearing over it?! If there's something halal but can make me go high, I'll probably done it. Fact, none. What the curry puffs la. And when I thought today's gonna be pretty fun, it was just not so bad kinda day? Baybeats wasn't much of a big deal uh because I missed Silhouette! And only caught Cardinal Avenue, Faspitch and Electrico. Eh actually Faspitch wasn't that bad man.

Okay back to MY story. Im really really fucked up. Not as in fucked but Im so depressed!! If I can't wait for my KL shopping trip with my friends, I really hope it's going to change my mood about life. I don't even know if Im working this fucking holidays. Im just gonna sell clothes, get money and then go naked because Ive got no more clothes? Heh. Fuck Im not joking you mother fish. OOOOHHHHHH MYYYY Gay. Just tell me what am I suppose to do to get this fucking life better since I got so crazy over you. And so depress over money. Even though money can't make you happy, it can make me. Right.

Stop saying youre bored reading my post this time. Argghhhh I really feel like I wanna die. I know there's something better to tell but I just need to get rid off all these things in mind. Like... I wanna get slim.. like slim shady. Damn. Where are my rainbows!!! The sky arent colouring my world.. It's so gloomy and dark these days. Okay.. I really really really wanna be happy now. Get me some red bull man. HUUUHH. That is a tired voice of me. Very tired. It's just not my day.. No I mean.. DAYSSS. I think I really look like a crazy girl. Okay one last word. FUCK!

Robots Make Better Lovers

2008-08-29T14:20:00.005+08:00

If somebody actually bother to know how I feel...
GO AND WATCH THIS VIDEO MAN!!!
Nyaheheh..

Birthday Polypocket 1

2008-08-19T23:59:00.005+08:00

The title says it all.. Happy Birthday my dear Atiqah!!!!! Hahaha. I hope that you enjoyed today as much as I did. Everything is especially for you! Hahaha. Im so happy that the surprise actually worked out. All thanks to your boyfriend's idea! Heheh. Awww. Now that you are legal enough to step into a club.. you better wait for my turn!!! Hahaha. I love you, Ati! May all your wishes and dreams come true!

We actually went for bowling before the surprise. For the second game, I AM IN SECOND PLACE!!! MUAHAHAHA. You wanna beat me now? Nah uh you can't! Hahaha. Bowling was very fun indeed.

This is very CANDID!!!! But my hair looks nice.. Hahahaha!! Hi Des!!

This is way before today.. I think it was last Thursday or something? We went to the culinary school in TP. I think that is what you call it. Hahaha. The place is like as if you are in Hawaii! Really really.. The dinner table and menu.. Hmm ya.. I think I wanna bring my boyfriend here. HAHAHA as if. Okay.. going on...

Crazy cam-whoring at some place at the very end of TP. Err ya that's about it. Hahaha!

Hot Like My Oven

2008-08-18T23:02:00.003+08:00

Finally!! AHH! I am putting some time aside to update my Rainbow Pills. Haha. I have sooo many things in mind to talk about but there is just too little time..

On Saturday, we went down to Suntec and supported the L.E. Even though they didn't make it to the next round at least they made it to the semi-finals and like many have said, they have done their best and everyone including me are very proud of them :) ..

After that, we went for shisha and hang out... Pretty sweet. Heheh. Goodnight!

Wait.. I credit Akid for the new song in my blog! Thank you Akid <3 HAHAHA dah puas belum ni? amek nah.. haha..

Not A Fucking Paperdoll

2008-08-12T17:46:00.002+08:00

Hi Bloggie. You are so cute can I date you? Nabei sia I feel so lost, angry and sad. This is what you call emo. Hehehe. But really, with the gloomy sky and sad melody all around me I can feel the emo shit. Taik betul. Haha. It's very funny to know that I can change feelings with a split seconds. All the terrible laughters and crappy dids in school and now, the ugly frown sitting infront of the desk with nobody at home and no food! I mean ya.. you know.. you know... ehehe. Hmpf!

I can bet this is because I want to be like my friends. They have boyfriends to hug. Even Ali has a girlfriend now! Im so jealous. Hahaha. If you don't believe me, you can ask Danial how he felt because he is also in my shoes! Kan? Da ar diam ar kau. Tau ar kasut aku busuk. Whatever. And then, I feel paranoid that I just might get heartbroken again if I really put hopes on someone. But, no, I am trying not to. I begin to feel like a paperdoll. Even though, I am not as pretty as a barbie doll. A paperdoll like you use it, crush it, and throw it into the bin.

The sky is starting to shine back. Soooo.. you know on NDP I actually went to watch fireworks with my poly-pockets although some couldn't make it. I think the fireworks were beautiful cause all this while I thought they were boring. Haha. Wait ar.. I dont know why Trini call us poly-pockets. It's suppose to be pukimakdolls. I think it was so fun with Mush around. Sorry Ati.. but he is like the best boyfriend EVAA?? Haha! Then we had late dinner at Lau Pa Sat and Mush ride us back home with his CAR around 1am. CAR okay!! Hahaha I had fun people! :D
I just remembered about my Writoral Presentation. What the bleah sia I talk so long then my powerpoint slide damn little. You know what?! My exams are starting in 2 weeks time!!!! Ahhhh you tell me how to not get crazy. Macam crazy sale. Hahaha but no lah.. This is crazier. But on my presentation day, actually I feel a bit pretty ar because everybody complimented me. Hehehe. Because I wore high-waisted skirt and a smart blouse. So formal! But my friends say I look like horny bitch and drunk. Bastard sia what kind of friends is this. Hehehehe.
Thank you for listening bloggie. I love you. See you soon ok? Don't hesistate to call me again. Hehehe.. Goodnight I need to sleep even though the day haven't change to night yet. What the hellll.. Heleeeepppp meee Ima innnn thee HOOOOLEEEE *Suhaila accent* Hahahaha Eh boring ar why never rain man.. If rain, I can save the electricity bills, no need to on the aircon. I can save the Earth and you can too! Look at the polar bears they don't have ice to stand on anymore. K BYE!!!!!!!!!!

Fatin is Crazy

2008-07-31T21:16:00.001+08:00

You know something called... boredom? Anak sape ntah pakai topi kat rumah..

At Italy.. Spore time 9.30pm but at Italy still got sunshine..

School library.. arent we suppose to be studying?!!

LT dont know what.. writoral presentation

Dfund Lab.. K boring. Bye
Meow. Heheh. Waahhh so long already never update. I just felt lazy and so draggy. Tkde nak rhyme kan je. By the way, I screwed Dfund's today! Like uh nah uh that's so true sizta~ Besides that, Im also having EPT tomorrow and okay, this really sucks. Haha. I mean.. why am I so laid back when the exams are drawing near. They are just a blink away. Not like you blink one time then it's exam time.. But you know.. that uhh nevermind I couldn't remember what you call it! Eee frustrating nye. Dammit.. I need to study.. Err

Soooo.. hmm ya! For writoral, we had the presentation just now.. and.. Fatin slides was.. hmm adorable. Hahaha! Fatin if you are reading this better buck up please! She turns on the Thats What You Get by Paramore while presenting her speech. HAHAHAHA Im so sorry if you can't imagine this but it is so funny! Astagfirullah.. Mengucap aku.. Everyday aku mengucap tengok dia. HAHAHA sorry. Hmmm yeah that's about today. WhaaaaEvaaaa~ This is really random, I am bored. Fatin bertuah ni title name die.... =_="

Actually I have pretty serious news.. Haiii am I like crapping here.. no where else to go. Lucky I rainbow pills, is always here to listen. K ar not always wth. Hmm so yeah.. Im contented because I thought I just hear you in my dreams. Buttt.. you just make me dream come true! Hahaha so old school. But no. I mean yes. Really. It goes "You are my star" Hahaha dah ar malu. My loyal readers wouldn't understand though my english not even near to chimp. How you spell it? What? Chimpanzee? Hahaha k ar sorry..

Saturday Smiles

2008-07-21T01:23:00.010+08:00

Hello sunshines. I am finally out of the east side! HAHAHA. Yeay ok. Arr yesterday I followed my friends to collect their photos. To Suntec and hang out at Starbucks.

We had a pretty big time cam-whoring! This is soooo fun! Hahaha! But! Time has to fly to know that tomorrow is Monday! Im going to get busy with school AGAIN!

We were busy drawing "our heroes" for some heritage while waiting for the others. Hmm =_= Hahaha Esplanade hang outtttsss Me and Sue are always with our random "grab a lot of clothes, go in the changing room, take a lot of photos, no need to buy and then off from topshop" Heheheh More like clones ar Sue muahahaha

Starbucks laptop craze and it's like soo funneh

I had so much fun after decades of being stuck in school, about school! And I cannot believe that Im back to that. Starting by tomorrow. This sucks. Suck ice cream better man. ARGH!

123 Go!

2008-07-12T00:07:00.007+08:00

This is my work! Hahaha I edit this. Whaaa? My problem ar muahahaha. Cool sia I do. Seriously. Good job Manda! *Taps my head*

Click to enlarge ar k. CLICK! You better click! This is so cool, cooler than you ma'food! Btw, I was playing with my EPT stuff hahaha you know..

& Im bebeberrBORED like come on drag it like I did booooreddd! This is the most boring moment I had this year. Hahaha. I really have nothing to do..

WAIT! Hehehe actually have ar but well you know.. you know.. Hahaha. K people please clear up your minds. Im still a quarter bored though.

Lemme see, I think I'll be feeling-feeling tonight on my own.

Err kay I don't even have any idea what to type. Right now Im just staring at the blank screen.. well not blank, im surfing the net but like really wtf.

Oooo maaa Goooodd seriously, what? So, today is a very very very very haha so many k very long day. It wasn't but because I was pretty much exhausted.

Possible enough for me to sleep ANYWHERE.

Say whuuaat?? Well.. EPT was fun. I think it is & I think this is the first ever time me saying it. Hmm hehehe! Wth. What else about school?

I didn't.. oh kay I ate today. I thought I didn't? K sorry ar. Betul arr.. IF I've a million dollars falling just for me. FOR ME nobody else!

Tuuuttt* error in process. K my mind went blank. I'll go listen to hujan..

Sick

2008-07-07T19:10:00.002+08:00

Wouldn't it be nice lalala wtf. It's a Cadbury song, I think. I don't know ar don't know! Argghh! The skies are gloomy and I should've rested on my bed. Mmm.. Dream like Im in somekind of wonderland. Best eh. Boring ar random nya. Actually, I just got home from school. I ended early at 4pm but my legs just bring me somewhere else after that...

Im really unhappy because I went to school. Firstly, it's not like I listen and concentrate in class. I usually do but I feel really sick and I cannot control my pain in the brain today. Like it's so heavy that I've to drag it into each lectures and tutorials. I stared blankly into the screens as if I am watching the moving dark clouds now. Sigh what a waste.

I just remembered the word. It's, wasted! Yes! I feel so wasted going to school today. I wasted my energy, my time, my money on food! Whatever man. If Im not wrong Ali says only cool celebrities say 'whatever'. I must be one of them. Heheh mereps sials. Know what?! I haven't recover after 4 days. Not like I have antibiotics to cure me..

I really really and REALLY need to catch up on so many things right now. Im going down down duuduu whoaa aaa. Know that song? You know...? Boy you know.. cheeky ar! Nvm. My grades are going down, not consistent on my studies. I feel more unhappy. Whatever it means. Argh! Haha restless but don't know why I sound more like angry :D

1 2 and 3 I'll call it a day I need a break have some kit kat! But I don't have any chocolates around me now. I did just say I'll call it a day. Okay Im actually thinking what to do now. If I try to study, I wonder if it gets into my brain and stays there. Im really having a major headache. I don't know if major suits the description anyways. Haha chow!

Beneath

2008-07-06T19:12:00.010+08:00

From the chapters of life, I begin to realise. I try to blind my eyes seeing, choke my sorrow and brace up. The people and their companions. Dropping them a line in their glory days. The envious feeling that boils sometimes made things out of place. Like my head in outer space. I want somebody to melt my heart.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! RANDOM SIAK :( BGR WHATEVER AR!

Practically speaking, I am bored down to earth. If there is such idioms anyway. Heavy hangs my head and I am ill stuck on my bed. Surprisingly, I posted the above 'cause I have been watching my friends with their soulmates. I think, I want to be like them. But still, you can't buy me, not even mastercard, Im priceless. :)

Astalavista.

Mixed Flavour

2008-07-01T23:49:00.006+08:00

Burn burn burn! Aku tengah bingit ni, mood swings but wtf? Im really pissed off but I can't pour it out in words because Im listening to a sad song instead. I don't know how to convert this mixture of feelings. Nabei dah macam chemistry campur log.

Speaking of log, I really don't know how much more I need to crack my brain for engineering maths. Puks sia. Nabei. Haha today a lot of vulgarities. Im so exhausted, I ran around the school before lab tests sia just now. I feel drained that I don't know what crap Im doing.

Other than kway teow. Eh! Argh! Im so craving for it now because I know my other friends are eating at simpang bedok! I chose to stay under the block and do my CKT like wow! Knn. What I wanted to say was..

Other than the possibilities above, I really want to write an article with a proper structure & vast vocabulary. Btw, like not important ar I tell all this. Earlier, we went for a small picnic with Atiqah's boyfriend after school. It was fun. We get free Starbucks drinks & food. Haha!

It was all to ourselves & was blasting the music. Actually didn't really blast lah the radio was attached to the car what. Haha mereps ar sials tul. This shows it's time for supper time! Haha eh no lah, I really have no mood for food this time. Ta!

Small Little Cute Picnic 1/7/08 Hahahaha!

Odd

2008-06-30T00:08:00.004+08:00

I have the desire of having a dramatic life like in most tv serials, through all the bold and risky undertaking. I want to be a star and act out what is in the written script. I want to be like Biyan in Virgin. The diary that she wrote about her questionable life that made her well-known through her novel. From the hotel room of an inexpectable ending.

In the ups of life it doesn't really excites me. You think Im crazy. The conception existing in the mind creates itself when Im a drama mama. I have always imagine in a stern surrounding. How cool it would be. I wouldn't cope if there is any constraints from what I have today. Ironically, I want to try the taste of being in a hazard. An unsual experience. Hmm?

Basically, I just got influenced from a movie. Hahaha. Watch me.

Happy Kid

2008-06-25T23:13:00.007+08:00

It starts with one thing, I don't know why. It doesn't even matter how hard you try. Keep that in mind. Bwahaha! Ive had my third day of school & Im already dragging my feet. Kaki aku gemok sangat ar, taklah tapi tak tau ar. Hmm. Ive got a good news, for myself at least. I got back my old passion! HAHA! After school, I met mum & brother went for a little shopping.

I miss going out with them, been sometime. Heheh. Then, guess what?! Ive joined back piano lessons in Yamaha! Yeay! Hahaha kental siak but happy sia. Heee.. K, Im watching anime with my brother now. Suddenly, we don't act like cats & dogs. Haha Im the cat by the way. Meow. Wow k craps!

Grand Hustle Homie

2008-06-22T01:19:00.003+08:00

Cibai blur sia. Hahaha. These are Haikal, Willy, Elmmy, Manda me duh!!

Nabei chips betul. I just got home, Im worn out & I feel depressed! Im just inches away of being insane. Kanasai. Ive only got 23 more hours before school starts. Let me see, I have one whole stack of assignments to do. Also, I need to choose my CDS & if I don't I won't be able to graduate. Fuck. Hahaha! What've I been doing! This is really funny & tickling me off man.

I went to beat merchant earlier. It has been a while since I last step into gigs. I don't know what to feel. Hahaha. It was so-so lah. I just like the part when each band covers a hip hop song. I think they made it so cool that Im feeling hip hop now. Meow kental sia Manda, dah biasa.. Shouldve gone to homeclub for November Iris uh *kening up down* Haha! Wtf. I need a nap!!

Ezlink Syg

2008-06-20T08:13:00.013+08:00

Finally! Im home & Im typing this shit. Ive been sleeping in the streets. *ROLLS EYES* Prangai. Muahahahaha. Okay no. I started to tidy up my room at 6.30am(surprisingly) in search of my ezlink! My everything. It travels everywhere I go. Im sure it's somewhere in the house & maybe it's just playing hide & seek with me. Please show yourself ezlink, I need you concession. Sigh. Im so sad.

Besides my somber moments HAHA, Im proud to say that Im doing my assignments. Eventhough Im just looking at the Dfund book I place beside me. Argh! Fine. I think Im going to do it after this. The holidays are too short for me & Im not happy about school reopening next week! ROAR Im feeling so bored right now, don't know what to do. It's just the TV, News *makes eye brows like the rock*

HANGING OUT WITH THE GIRLS PHOTOS;

MY NAME IS HAYLEY, MEOW HEHEHE

MCAFE CHILL OUT

Great time, I had :)

The Happening

2008-06-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

Today was never plan. It just got out of random and the boredom of life. Hahaha. No, seriously. I met Shahmir, Elmmy and Saiful today thought we might go and play bowling but we ended in the cinema. We caught The Happening and really really, look I said really TWICE so you better watch it. Hahaha it's really good, didn't waste any single cent. Though, it cost only $6. Hahaha.

I guess that's about today. The show ended around 8pm plus so we went to my place & played pool. Haha. Err yeah so we had some maggi back at my place & they went off. I had a good day. Some small reunion, not. HAHA! Heheh I wonder if The Vast Beauty still exist. Where will we be? No where? Hahaha I think we dreamt too far. *Rolls eyes* Oh well. I'll call it a day. Bye!

Yo Im so cool Muahahaha

multiple shots =_= nyahaha

Yo mama is so fat ^_^

Candid! Argh Hahaha but cool right

Superheroins

2008-06-15T23:09:00.001+08:00

Oh my God Im back?! Hahaha Im so drained out that I couldve ask for more than 24hours of sleep. Nyahah We had another girls day with exception of Afif & his friend. We've got so many food that the first thing I crave between our journey to the beach was eat as much as I want! Prangai aku macam piglet ar hari tu, actually hari-hari but ni extra. Hehehhuhuhohohahahihi

It really turned out to be a really fun picnic though Ive got sunburn on me again. Check out the word AGAIN! Hahaha So we were playing kites, seawater, freesbie. Im so lazy to recheck it in dictionary.com. Argh! Haha prangai. They made me run & scream & jump like mad that I think Ive lost some weight. Hahaha But they're all done out of joy so why not? Im grinning!

We wanted to explore the rest of Sentosa but ended bathing at 5pm was never enough time. We walked around though & have a little snack behind the waterfall & Merlion. Their mouth couldn't stop munching, yeah me too. Haha malu ar mcm tk phm je. Yesterday was really breathtaking! We chilled at vivo then off to chill with Faruq & Qayyum & off back home.

To end it off, I really think I talked too much this time. What more to say? I love you girls! ^_^
GIRLS!! HAHAHAHA THIS ONE DAMN FUNNY

I had to put this up pasal that time soooooooooo funny! HAHAHA SORRY

Suhaila flies her kite into the sea, An apek flies his kite side ways. ARGH FUNNY!!

Power ar So Kawaiii right *Tongues out* Afif story-telling us about NS life HAHAHA

My picture tells lieeeeeeeee Im not slim Hehehuhuhohoahahihihi

The HBT

2008-06-12T23:32:00.022+08:00

We had our day with Karaoke and Shisha! I had my first step in the Karaoke Lounge. Hahaha! "Kental ar". "Kental ar kau balik ar." I feel so "suar" because I re-typed this for several times. Argh I know I can write better! Hahahah.

This was our first ever HBT outing. Frankly, it was fun! For all the days under the void deck calling ourselves ernyvoid. Hmm Hahaha! Okay. They have been my rainbow pills anyway. I always had a good time. Thank you, guys!

Me, Beng, Alistar, Haicarl, Dan, Nat, Din, Fik (Fierce ar)

Fu-Yoh! Me Fu-Yoh! Dan Fu-Yoh Ali! Fu-Yoh Kel!

This is Dan, Din and Beng

Representing Alistar & Dan & Nat

Apa aja Dyy!

Goodnight.

Introduction

2008-06-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

Finally! Ive made a new blog. Hehehe This is simplicity! I like. The times that I have been missing in action has made me have so much to say. By starting a fresh, not only in this layout, but in the way I colour my life. I have plan to just let out everything that I think I might want to. I welcome all loyal readers but if you are not one, don't make a huge fuss out of it. Haha. Watch me colour my world.

Much love,